some people take a longer time to forget than others. I think it depends who you try to forget, and if you try to hard to forget the person, you won't be able too. And I dont believe that you did anything wrong, i think that it was all him.

I wish i knew why people change, if I did, I'd tell you, because I'm sick of, "Changing is apart of life". I want a better explanation than that.

just wondering what country do you live in?

and i deff think obama is the best choice i'm a lil confused how others think mccain is the man for the job. but we'll see next week who the president will be? im ready to vote and get it over with.....its been a long long political race

yup im new here:)

that entry was , and as of now still is my first entry:)

Ah it's really sunny here today haha

good luck with your exams!

Dee.

Hey, thank you for the comment!

Awww no! Not the rain! Even over here we got so much rain, it's so dreary. Not like there's loads of flooding, ome minor yeah, but hope the weather gets better over tere soon!

Oh that's rawkin' you guy's getting better, being unwell or whatever sucks.

Good luck studying! I'm never very good at it

And in reply to your comment..

Yep, beauty is totally skin deep. I really don't bother that much about how I look, and definately don't use an inch of makeup to impress people. Let your personality sine through is always what I say! But yeah, I've never been all that pretty or whatevs, and lately people have been saying I am, maybe it's the confidence thing, idk..

Yeha, the pic wouldn't show up for some reason..

Much love!<3

heeya!!!

Thx for ur comment...i know i am lucky

i hope ur bf get weLL soon!!

must study hARd! =p

loves.eve

Hope your Okay :)

[InsaneAngel]

hey again. so things started gettin better but are now gettin worse. like charlie got over the whole suicidal attempt thing but now hes just not talkin to me. May 1st was his birthday and i talked to him then. all of a sudden he just stopped callin me. i didnt hear from him til the day before my birthday, may 7th. he didnt even call me on my birthday. he called me the next morning tryna be all lovey with me but i was upset. he says he loves me but lately it doesnt seem like it. now i havent herd from him in the pass 3 days and yesterday some girl sent me a message on myspace sayin that she goes out with charlie. i didnt believe her but she showed me some messages that he sent her and stuff. it killed me to read those words. i called up his cousin and she gave me the password and email to his myspace and he was sendin all these girls messages sayin he loved them and he was with them and sh*t. it was so devastating. i couldnt believe it. i still havent heard from him. i dont wanna hear from him but then again i do cause i do love him but i know i cant be with him. not with all the chaos going on in me life. im stressin enough and i dont need him addin any more pressure on me which he is already doing and im not even talking to him. 

also i have a really really really close friend named Laron. im 18 hes 21 but we're kool like that.  i care about him and  i do like him but i love charlie. Laron likes me too. and hes one person i can confide in no matter what. everything that goes on in my life he basically knows. he says charlie doesnt deserve me and he doesnt treat me right but i never listened to him. i feel bad cause i put my boyfriend over a friend. and i feel bad cause im with charlie but i have VERY strong feeling for Laron.  Laron and i talk everyday and he wants to be with me but he doesnt like to rush into stuff. like heres how it all begin......i met laron about a week before i met charlie. Laron and i were talkin but so was charlie and i. Laron said he wasnt tryna rush into nuthin and i respected that and started talkin to charlie more. laron never asked me if i had a boyfriend until after charlie asked  me out. but laron still wanted me in his life so we became close friends. i talk, see, and hang out with laron more then charlie. i actually was with him last night. like charlie and laron are two differnet kind of people that i just love.

Charlie is the kind of guy that will be all lovey dovey with you but is still a man. he can be aggerssive with out being disrespectful. hes yelled and cussed at me before but i deserved it.

Laron is honest. he tells you the truth even if it hurt. but once again hes resepectful. he would NEVER disrespect me in anyway.  hes someone i can be myself around and not worry bout him judgin me. he can always make me smile no matter what mood i am in. he makes me happy just hearin his voice across the phone. when he hugs me i get butterflys in my stomach lke when your younger. he knowa the perfect things to say at the right time and always gives good advice. even if i dont take it sometimes.  hes a great guy but after talkin to him for 6 months he still thinks we would be rushing into something. what we have he calls "a relationship in the making"...

So im stuck. LARON or CHARLIE. charlie is obvisouly cheating on me and laron tried to make me realize that and i didnt. im so stupid. im just lost. i dont know what to do.....

Thanks for your comment. Your man doesn't work 24 hours a day does he? You do get to see him after work, don't you? Anyway, thanks again, I'll try to do what you said about the depression. Take care.

Chad

Thanks for the comments on my diary.  I know everyone is right, I think I was just looking for a little confirmation and moral support.  Thanks,

[jmf1968]

Hey sweety:o)

Hope your okay.. :)

Love Monica

Heart hugs!   Don't allow anyone to mistreat you! You're precious!

   Glad to see you back!

   Have a blessed day!,

        Jewel

hi sweety :o)

How goes :o)

Just here to tell you that I´m fine now

Hope you are too..

Hugz and love Monica

DearOne,

  I hope that your day is going better today..Rememeber to see and give thanks for the small blessings!

  Thank YOU for being a Blessing to me!

   I'm sorry that you are at a painful place in life..Know that I am here and that I Love you and so does God!

   Have a Blessed weekend and update soon and let us know how you are today!,

             Jewel

Heart Hugs! Sorry to read that things have been so rough.  Sorry to hear that your friends have not been there for you and that your ex is back stabbing you.

 Try breaking your day into minutes...each day has it good points and bad...Try to focus on the good ones.

   Yes, when one problem is solved another arises..we are here on earth to learn and to grow..Our trials teach us.

   Sending you some LOVE,

        Jewel

YAY YAY YAY It's soooooo good to see you back! I hope that you update soon...Anything specific that you want me to pray over?

   Much Love,

        Jewel

No, I don't.
Why do you ask?

<3,
Nicole

wow! ty for actualli botherin to finish that entry haha. but yer ive had sum tuff times but, im gettin ther. the thing tht sukks is tht now im finalli settled (oh yer that entry was from a while ago) we might have to move agen :-( ty for ur support and hope u go well with exams.... make a timetable for studying... it helps :-D

Thank you for the bday wishes. We share the same bday!

Happy birthday to you too

happy birthday  it's good to see ya happy xx

Msn?

Hope you had a great birthday ;o)

And I´m glad that your happy

sweety...

You really have to call him,

that is if he means so much to you..

If not for him, then for you self ;)

Go get him girl ^^

Hey,

Thanks for the prayers.. My dad was moved out of ICU today so that means he's doing alot better..

I am doing pretty good.. im just staying tired trying to stay at the hospital part of the day.. and get stuff ready for school next month..

Take Care!

Men is men ^^ I don´t understand my boyfriend. sometimes, hes like a bitch,  almost before hes more women then me, when he gets mad ^^

But, what about, you say to that Man, you got to caal, that, if he wants to talk he can call you ? then its all up to him, and not you :D

Men is men ^^ I don´t understand my boyfriend. sometimes, hes like a bitch,  almost before hes more women then me, when he gets mad ^^

But, what about, you say to that Man, you got to caal, that, if he wants to talk he can call you ? then its all up to him, and not you :D

You got to call him then

Well, i´m fine, today. :D

what about you ?

Hey thanks for the prayers..

He is doing alittle better!

Tiffy*

Well

He just sad a very stupid thing to me today, that hurt me so much, don´t know how to explain it. right now..

But trust me I´m okay.

What about you ?

called him yet ? ;o)

Love Monica

Call Him ;)

Aww thank you :)  I probably should have worded that differently -I'm not really searching for God because I know he's real, but I guess I am searching for the right place to come and worship him, the right church to call my home if that makes sense?!  Good luck with your studies!

Tons of love--Mary

Hugs!!!!!  Thank YOU so much for the beautiful prayer that you left for me.   I love it! It sooo touched my spirit and brightened my day.  That was soooooo very sweet of you!!!!

     Have a Blessed Day!

      With Gratitude,

           Jewel

aww that is so sweet

I am glad that you are happy

thank you for that comment

take care

hugs

[ladyofthelake]

It´s just my dad, he thinks thart I can do everything, But I can´t, and when I fail, he just get so mad at me, and I really don´t think that he have anything to say, about my life...

did not live at home, from I was 13 or so.. They loved my brother more than me, and did just let me live my life...

It´s a little hard to explain...

all the poems in my diary are written by me with the exception of 3 which have the name of the author next to it

thank you

thanks for the comment =] I'm sure he'll show up tomorrow, and if not, you're strong enough to handle it, but he'll probably show.

much love,

.:Kaitlin:.

Heart Hugs! I know that it was hard but I am proud of you for doing the right thing!

  Your Friend,

      Jewel

Christians don't believe in spells and charms- at least I don't. Well, I don't consider myself to be a christian so what in the hell do I know?
Anyway, people can't hurt you through spells and charms. That stuff is superstition and it does nothing. Maybe you believe in it and that is what is causing the problems. But you know what I bet? I bet that with or without those so-called spells you would still be having a difficult time. Look around you. Everyone has problems and they don't have spells and charms cast on them.

Thank YOU so very much for your note of support and for leaving that beautiful Bible verse for me.  Thank YOu for being a Blessing in my day!

 Have a blessed day!,

      Jewel

  Thank YOU so very much for your sweet note..It brightened my day!

 the devil is trying to give me problems today...So when I read your note-it was right on track!  God uses YOU to help me to see what is going on!

   How are you today? I hope that you update soon and let us know.

   Your Friend,

       Jewel

Thanks for your comment...I appreciate it. My heart goes out to you. I understand how it feels to miss. Be sure to take care of you during this time, ok. You deserve it.

Oh and good luck on the exam. I hope that all goes well.

thankzzzzz ..

i surely will so what u said ...

it really helped me feel better .....

thankzzzzz again .....

thank u for ur encouraging comment..But .. sigh.. he din call at all today.. i'm so disapointed.. i miss him..

[Vague18]

Thanks for the comment. Made me smile. Good luck with your exams!!

...for the comment. Sorry u feel a bit crappy atm - best of luck!

God bless,

Lalisha x

Heart Hugs! Maybe God has someone better in store for you! You deserve to be treated well...with Love and Respect.

   Have a blessed day!,

        Jewel

hey,hope he talks to u soon ,well i know how it feels i always hope my ex (m still madly inlove with ) to just say hi to me on msn but most of the time  he dont..

Heart Hugs! Thank YOu for your beautiful and faith-filled note!

 You are so right about go dloving us for who we are and Him forgiving us. YAY God!

   I'm sorry about things with your ex and the heartache it is causing you.

   I said a prayer for you both!

   Have a Blessed Week!,

         Jewel

Thanks for the comment I always return the favor so...

I think ur a strong girl I'd give in and talk to him..

Do what your heart tell you to do!!

aww that sounds tough, sweetie.

but i kno you'll make it through because you're strong

<3LOVE

Well, if you had asked me that questions years before, maybe i would have said yes. considering i was so lonely and missed him terribly.

But no, i didnt regret my decision. Maybe fate helped me decide. I truly believe that my husband is my soul mate. We maybe having some marital spats from time to time, but im very glad that i made that decision. Because if i havent, i woulnt have my family now.

You know, if you're the one who was putting all the effort in the relationship and yet, you're not appreciated. I say, give yourself a chance to a better and deserving relationship.

You may be feeling so terribly lonely today but as they say, good and much better things are yet to come. Maybe this experience you had will serve as a reminder when you enter into a relationship again.

Just always remember to never give all of yourself into a relationship. Its never helpful, in my opinion. You just hold back a portion of yourself wherein you still have your own self respect and dignity.

Believe me, when i tell you that when the right man comes along, you dont have to give your everything into that relationship. Because a healthy relationship means both of you should give a part of yourselves. Not always only you.

If a man truly loves and cares for you, he appreciates even the simplest thing that you do for him. And loves you for just being you.

So, maybe its a good thing that you have ended a relationship with your ex. If your always miserable in a relationship, in my opinion again, its not healthy for your own dignity to remain in that, always convincing yourself that eventually everything will turn out fine. When its very obvious that you're the only one who's trying everything to make the relationship work.

You deserve to be made happy by a man who truly loves you. dont ever settle  for anything less.

[ever_hopeful]

Hi there again!

You know i truly understand what you're going through.

Before i met my husband, i had a bf and he really made me feel loved and take care of. But we encountered a huge problem in our relationship and it was me who made the decision to break up with him. Well, it was an unfair move because the day that i gave his sister my break up letter, he thought everything was ok between us.

You see, i broke up with him, not because i dont love him anymore. I broke up with him, but i was still so inlove with him. And making that letter was the hardest thing ive done. I wont tell the details that made me decide to break up with him.

I didnt regret my decision but i was terribly suffering from it. I missed him everyday, i missed his voice and his smile.

His sister told me that when she gave him the letter, he wanted to come to me and demand an explanation. She said he was truly baffled at the turn of events. She said he wanted to cry for what i have done to us. But she stopped him from coming to me. She said she told him to give me some time to think.

To make matters worse,we worked in the same company. We saw each other often after that break up. Whenever we cross paths, he let me really feel that he refused to look at me. I understood his anger and his hurt. But i had no choice when i made that letter.

Anyway, when you do love someone so much, that you invested so much emotion to the guy, and when you part ways, you feel as if there's a very big hole inside of you. You feel empty and lost.

For 2 years, i was miserable. I was missing him everyday and made some ridiculous things just so i can hear his voice. really very silly.

But then, one day, i told myself that im so tired of being lonely and missing him. When he made it pretty obvious after only a few months of our break up, he moved on with his life. I saw him with another girl and he made it obvious that he didnt care if i broke up with him. Which his sister totally assured me was a complete lie. She said he was only using the girl to hurt me back. Which was really stupid. Using another girl and insensitive to her feelings.

Well, i have moved on with my life too. After 2 lonely and miserable years, i met my husband. We were engaged for 5 years and we're happily(almost!) married for almost 6 years now.

And you know what, after so many years of not having any news about my ex, i found out last year, after having met his wife from a common friend, that he never really gotten over me. He got married, has a son now. But what she told me really rendered me silent. She said that when his son was born, he DEMANDED that a certain name be given to his son. His wife was mystified by his demand. And you know, she asked me, "Dont you remember what both of your plans were if ever you had a son with him?" And i was i dont remember anything. 

Then she said, " My husband was demanding that we give our son the name of _____ because that was what YOU AND HIM BOTH DECIDED WHEN YOU WERE STILL TOGETHER."

I was in Twilight Zone at that moment.

And hey,goodluck in your exams! Sorry for the long story.

Hi there!

You know KittoB has a point there about maybe your friend having feelings for you. I had a somewhat similar experience.

My brother had 2 close friends and they were both like brothers to me too. But then, i got a crush on his friend A. Then, his friend B turned out to have a crush on me. Surprise of it all was that I found out friend A has a crush on me, too. Then friend B learned that he's at the losing end. But he backed out of the scene.

Then, friend A and I had a mutual understanding. But he didnt want my brother to find out about us. But he did, and he confronted friend A. telling him that he was using their friendship to take advantage of me. So, friend A TOLD MY BROTHER THAT IT WAS ME WHO WANTED TO HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WHICH WAS A TOTAL, COMPLETE LIE.

So, i got angry with him and didnt speak to him for 2 straight years. He made me look bad to my brother. Then friend B came back to the scene and tried to win my affections. He made me feel special most of the time. Plus, he made it clear to my brother FIRST that he loves me and wants to court me. And when my brother gave his approval, friend B tried his best to convince me that he really loves me.

Telling you to forget about your bf is not a sound advice because it's really hard to get over a relationship that you have invested so much devotion and love. But give yourself a chance to find out what was your friend's motive for his actions. You never know. maybe true love is just there near you, waiting to be found.

lol; yeah

i need to change also.

good luck on your exams :]

good luck in your exams

thank you tons for your comment

I have learned my lesson

I will just try to keep out of his way until I leave

I might write again but only if I get a new poem together

hugs

Go out somewhere like a gig or something,
Meet a new boy.
Help you forget straight away!

Good Luck in your exams, and thanks for my comment

xx

hey:

thanks, im sure your excatly right.
i need to just move on and show that there not holding me down.
and wait till they come back.
i read your entry.
i really liked it;;hope things start to come together more..